threeinchestall

Monday,

September 13, 2010.

My, goodness.

Have you ever slammed your hair in the car door? Or rolled it up in the window?

Yeah.

Ouch.

I feel, silly, really. I'm floating along, and I've been in a good place for a while.

More content than I have ever been. I know this.

There are always things to be fixed, but I have got a hold on this thing, called living.

It is so wonderful to be able to look at my life, and the things I have rather than the things I don't.

I'm not taking time anymore to think, to pick what I am.

I am not going to find one emotion, but a million and a half.

I'm looking at my family and what they do. We build eachother up.

I love to watch what a great mother I have; how hard she works, considering the amount of stress we give to her. Her advice, and her sympathy.

My dad, and the small things he does, like giving me his last three dollars from his wallet so that I can put gas in my car. How incredible it is to think of his and my mom's relationship and learn from them.

My sister, watching her learn the ropes of motherhood.

What an incredible gift. Not just motherhood, but her understanding of life and her open heart and mind to culture and people. My neice is the luckiest daughter to have a smart mom, who is willing to work harder for her than she does for herself.

I have loved watching my brother- seeing how he is making wiser choices than I did when I was his age.

His love for my family at an age where we are embarrassing. I can't believe what an incredible person he is, truly an example to me.

Youngest sister- What a spiritual giant this girl is. I don't want to miss one day with her dancing on the grass barefoot. I need to remember that these will be the memories of her childhood, and that it's okay that we don't live in a mansion. ;) I'm reminding myself that while I'm driving away...I should take just ten more minutes to ride bikes with you. That ten minutes won't make as big of a difference to you as it would to me.

My love-You have taught me more about living than I could have ever learned myself. The person that you are is inside is the person that I love the most. A balance is hard, and I'm working at it everyday. Evolving....staying in sync. I want to compliment you and be there for you. As supportive as I can be, I respect you and I love you, more than anything. Good times, laughing, embracing....I've never felt so found.

 Faith > Fear.

 It is times like these that I would never take back. I can't express it enough, that I love you.

I am also grateful to go to work everyday where I have friends and amazing people who reach out to me, who care. I love my students and their hearts, but my co-workers are absolutely amazing people as well.
I am full of gratitude, and during the hard times, I feel full of life.

It is good to sit back, take time to look at everything

and to get on track. I understand disappearing for a while.

But know,

I am here

I am here

I am here

and always will be.

I have a spark. I am enthusiastic. I want things to work out.

I'm driven and I'm willing to work. Very, hard.

I know what I want and I'm going to work for it.

Whatever it takes.

I am Hannah and

I am wonderful.

This isn't a new beginning, it isn't starting over, it isn't even the end.

This is what it is and it is mine and accept it.

Please, look at the good times rather than the bad.

It amounts to much more.

Now,

I am going to play jeapordy and make homemade pizzas with my family.

-h