threeinchestall

Do other people feel more?

It makes me feel rather insignificant to know that I'm not the only one with these magical fleeting moments.

I don't care.

I know everyone's life is just as 'awesome' as mine,

and I'm so glad you let me and everyone know in every which way.

Because it's much better to focus on the positive side of things, right?

I'm not letting you in on much, because I'd probably tell you this in person,

but this is one of the first nights in a long time where my head is clear.

And I mean this, and I don't want you to judge me.

It's hard for someone to show weakness when you feel that everyone else is showing strength, and I'm so glad that all of your lives are wonderful, but I just have to show you that I'm human.

Not saying that you aren't.

I have discomfort, and anxiety and lack motivation and stay up all night and, and..

And yeah, sometimes I have to remind myself about tomorrow.

And sometimes I try not to make eye contact with my low fuel light turning on and my empty pocket.

Don't get me wrong, I'm as A-OK as I was a month ago, three months ago, ect.

In fact, Since the second week of January,

everything has been blissful. Completely.

I only have a handful of friends, and I feel that four out of the five are unreliable.

Yeah, honest.

I don't care to talk about this.

It's great that we meet up, grab drinks, shop, say goodbye.

That's all that it is. 
I have less than 100 friends on Facebook.

Reminisced tonight that I got my head stuck in the bars in line at Lagoon.

I've been so busy all I can think about on my time off is hiding in my room. I have become a hoarder. In other news, I turn 20 this summer and already have my birthday party planned.

I'll let you in on the theme very soon, however,

it's late and I am nostalgic.

-h