Give me one reason.

It's strange how one tiny slumber is what separates me from insomnia and peaceful sleep.

How can one be so dependant on something so small?

Really. It's nights like these where I realize my biggest mistakes.

I want to appologize to everyone I've ruined.

Intentionally or otherwise...

I mean, I've always thought I was generally a good person, but I'm almost second-guessing myself tonight.

I'm realizing how much stress I've caused in people's lives..

Not saying I've been a rude or I'm mean..but maybe just by not caring.

I know that there are about three or four people in my life that I'd die without.

I would completly fall apart if they were to suddenly stop caring.

Honestly, I need them.

I need them so much.

See, it's nights like these where I don't want to take those.

I don't care if I fall asleep at all tonight.

I hardly sleep at night anyways.

And sometimes I like laying on my floor.

But tonight I just want to take some things back.

Even though I don't regret anything I've done in my past,

I just want to make up for it.

And maybe appologize to the people I've lost, due to my own carelessness.

I just want to feel content with my past I guess.

However, I lack motovation.

Some one said to me..."You seem off..like you're in a whole other world and ignoring whats really going on around you."

Well, they're right. Somehow I just keep staring blank into what ever scene may come into view.

It's a strange state of mind...

But I can't seem to shake it.

I don't know what to do.

I feel as if I'm slipping, but I'm sooo happy.

Maybe it's just all the thoughts tonight that are paralyzing me.

Maybe I should stop trying to analyze everything.

Maybe I should just live.

But I'm not sure I know how to do that.

I don't know..I'm just scared I suppose.